urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99 Ally Ally 2009-06-16T18:29:52Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:60136 2009-06-16T18:29:52Z 2009-06-16T18:29:52Z I had a good weekend. Much needed break from Vermont, that's for sure. I LOVED seeing all the buildings and streets and billboards and dirtiness. lol. I will always always be a city kid no matter where I'm living or what I'm doing.<br /><br />I was happy that I got to hang out with Christina, Chanda, and Lisa on Friday. I missed them, so it was good to just catch up and hang out face to face for a while. :)<br /><br />On Saturday, it felt really good getting into Boston. I saw soo many people heading to Pride on the Lowell train. I didnt know any of them but it was still cool to know that we had something in common and were going to do the same thing. Pride really was a great time. The day was gorgeous: nice temp, bright sun. I got an awesome tan, and met a lot of amazing people. Random people wanted to take pics of my friends and I b/c Suazo was wearing a hilarious sign from her belt that said "I wanna ride your rainbow" so people wanted group pics of us and that sign. I thought it was funny. It was the first Pride for all four of us, which was exciting. I got a few decent pictures from my phone. We were looking for something to do at night, after we got a rest from the sun for a few hours and some food in our tummies (prices were too ridiculous to buy food at pride). I was on a mission, calling every club in the area, and they were all 21+! I was so bummed. What's the point of being over 18 if you STILL cant do anything? There was a femme night at a bar that we all really wanted to go to, but alas, there was nothing we could do about the rules. Instead, we stayed in at Suazo's, I had fun with a 3 month old baby boy (Suazo's nephew) and we watched a movie, and just talked for hours. <br /><br />Zach called me during the movie, and I talked to him for 45 minutes, b/c he had a date the next day in NYC, and was incredibly nervous. It was so cute. I had to tell him what to wear from the shirt to the belt to the socks to the cologne - everything! While we were talking, I came up with this theory about how all girls want a gay man in their life, b/c theyre always full of advice on life, fashion, and boys. lol. So I told him those magic powers weren't allowed to be used on him b/c that just wouldn't be fair, so when he needs advice, I have to be his "gay man." I thought it was funny, and he calmed down enough to yell at me about making jokes while he was so nervous. hahaha. On Monday, we talked again, and as it turns out, his date was a success, and the boy he's been talking to for months is now his official boyfriend. Zach is such a nice dude, I'm so happy for him. He's def one of my favorite boys.<br /><br />On Sunday, I spent the day with my sister Nikki, her best friend Michelle, and Michelle's four year old daughter Rayanna. I had an amazing time, b/c I missed my sis like crazy, and that little girl is always so great to be with. I havent seen her for 6 months, but as soon as she saw me, she tried wriggling out of her car seat, yelling Allllyyyyy. It totally made my day that she remembered me. My sis and Michelle caught up while we went out to lunch and hung out at Michelle's house, then Nikki's dad's house, and I just had a blast entertaining Rayanna. We played hide and seek, and tag, and I helped her build towers and houses with her dominoes. She's such a cutie. By Sunday, I was getting tired, but she just kept wanting to play cuz she hasnt seen me in so long, that I was more than happy to oblige. haha. Michelle and Rayanna went back to Michelle's house around 8:30 to put Rayanna to bed, and thats when me and my sis chatted about everything under the sun that's been going on. I'm so proud of her, and the fact that she's done a year of AA and completely turned her life around. Like seriously, I've never been more happy for her. :) <br /><br />I woke up early Monday to go see a few of my high school teachers before I had to leave. I caught up with Daley for a few mins, then O'Neil saw me and kidnapped me to her room. lol. We talked for about 40 mins. It was great. I miss her so much, she's as crazy as ever and I love it! We'll def keep in touch for a while, it seems. I hope so. Then I went to see Ms.G for a little while. That was funny. Her sarcasm hasn't dulled down at all, and from what she's telling me, her baby daughter is exactly the same as her. haha. She's 19 months now, and Ms. G showed me a pic, she's just getting cuter. :) After that, I left the high school and spent a few hours visiting my mom while she took care of some errands. She had to get an ID, and do other such things. After like 2-3 hours, it was time for me and Mark to head to Boston so I could catch my 2 pm bus back to Vermont.<br /><br />On the trip home, I had a lot of time to think about everything. It's hit me now that Lowell really doesn't seem to be my home anymore. Vermont's definitely not either, but I noticed that this last trip made me realize that Lowell simply isnt home anymore. Now it's the place to visit my friends and family, but it's not the place I belong. The city itself is, but.. I dont know. I'm not sure how to say it. I was mentioning this to Nicole this morning, and she got it, b/c she's been there before. She said that the trip home when you realize it's no longer your home is never a good one, but I disagreed on that part. I had a great weekend back, and somehow this revelation was okay with me. I was upset for a little while, but the more I think about it, the more okay with it I am. I feel like I'm growing up more, defintely. And in knowing that my hometown is no longer my home, I am realizing that I'm on some unwrittenpath right now. Completely free, completely decided by me, completely unknown. I won't be seeing the end of this road until I'm ready to settle, and find a place to call home, which will be a looong way away. But for now, I'm kind of just free-floating, going where my life takes me, and that thought gives me a little bit of serenity, even though it's also just a little bit scary. I never thought I would come to this point in my life so early, but it's here and I'm okay with it. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:56070 2008-11-20T21:39:12Z 2008-11-20T21:42:16Z Work Schedule over vaca:<br /><br />Friday: home around 5:15<br />Saturday: free<br />Sunday: 8:00 am - 4:30 pm<br />Monday: 11:00 am - 7:00 pm<br />Tuesday: 11:00 am - 7:00 pm<br />Wednesday: 11:00 am - 7:00 pm<br />Thursday: Thanksgiving (will be spending day with the fam until around 7-ish I'd say)<br />Friday: 6:00 am - 1:30 pm<br />Saturday: going out with Suazo, Jackie, and Amber to a club in Boston at night (meaning busy after about 5)<br />Sunday: free, until whenever meghan's mom picks me up (not sure when yet)<br /><br />So that is my schedule. If you want to hang out, let's do something in between all that. lol. I am determined to spend quality time with friends, so I plan on basically going nonstop all vaca. I cant wait! haha.<br /><br />Note to self: on monday, visit o'neil and gonzalez in the early morning, then get my mass ID from the RMV, and be done in time for work at 11. hopefully this gets done. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:55755 2008-11-08T07:01:17Z 2008-11-08T07:01:17Z taylor swift- our song <div><center><table border="0" width="350" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0" style="border: 1px solid black"> <tr> <td align="center" colspan="2"><br /><font size="+1">You fit in with:<br />Spiritualism</font><br /><br /><br />40% spiritual.<br />60% reason-oriented.<br /><br /><br /></td> </tr> <tr><td align="left"><img src="http://img.quizgalaxy.com/spiritualism.jpg"></td><td align="center">Your ideals are mostly spiritual, but in an individualistic way. While spirituality is very important in your life, organized religion itself may not be for you. It is best for you to seek these things on your own terms.</td> </tr> <tr> <td align="center" border="0" colspan="2"><br /><a href="http://www.quizgalaxy.com/quiz_47.html">Take This Quiz</a> at <a href="http://www.quizgalaxy.com">QuizGalaxy.com</a><br /></td></tr> </table></center><br /></div><br /><br />Sounds right to me. :) I havent taken any quizzes in a long while, but I liked that one, so I figured I'd put it up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:54978 2008-11-05T04:56:46Z 2008-11-05T04:56:46Z OOOOOOOBAAAAAAAAMAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br /><br /><br />what what in the butt!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />in case u cant tell im psyched!<br /><br />more to post tomorrow. :D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:54035 2008-10-22T13:19:47Z 2008-10-22T13:19:47Z Sia- Breathe Me FIRST SNOW OF THE YEAR!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!!!<br /><br />it's not sticking, but it's still snow. hell yeah. lovin vermont right now. rofl. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:52689 2008-10-08T03:35:25Z 2008-10-08T03:35:25Z I got tagged, and I'm bored, so here's the result. :D<br /><br />THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:<br />1. Travel to every major country in the world.<br />2. Become acknowledged as someone who did truly good things to improve the world.<br />3. Skydive!!!<br /><br />THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:<br />1. Ally<br />2. Ally-ria<br />3. Alexandria (dont u dare.)<br /><br />THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:<br />1. eltobgi2<br />2. greenangel99<br />3. lallyfreak99<br /><br />THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:<br />1. my eyes<br />2. my mouth<br />3. ?<br /><br />THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:<br />1. Greek<br />2. Greek<br />3. oh yeah, Greek! XD<br /><br />THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:<br />1. The dark<br />2. Having no control over what happens to me<br />3. Being alone in life<br /><br />THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:<br />1. Brush teeth and hair<br />2. Email<br />3. livejournal. rofl.<br /><br />THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:<br />1. Crop walk t-shirt<br />2. some black track pants<br />3. pink bra (what? I'm going to sleep. lol)<br /><br />THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/MUSICAL ARTISTS:<br />1. Pink<br />2. Superchick<br />3. Raining Jane<br /><br />THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:<br />1. There you be- Faith Hill<br />2. U'r So Gay- Katy Perry<br />3. Wyoming Sky- Raining Jane<br /><br />THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:<br />1. Love<br />2. Trust<br />3. A care-free, humorous relationship<br /><br />TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):<br />1. I like a girl back home.<br />2. I can french braid hair.<br />3. I know how to drive.<br /><br />THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:<br />1. Affectionate eyes, or ones that show emotion<br />2. Smile<br />3. A nice ass, sorry. lol.<br /><br />THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:<br />1. listen to music<br />2. reading<br />3. volunteering<br /><br />THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:<br />1. Get drunk<br />2. Talk to that certain person<br />3. Find some reason to laugh<br /><br />THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:<br />1. District attorney<br />2. foreign service officer<br />3. teacher (when I was like 10)<br /><br />THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:<br />1. Greece<br />2. India<br />3. France<br /><br />THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:<br />1. Colin<br />2. Mackenzie<br />3. Chloe<br /><br />THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:<br />1. I screw with my hair a lot during the day<br />2. I am uber ticklish<br />3. I sing along to most songs I know<br /><br />THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:<br />1. I play tough, and hide my feelings<br />2. I like getting rough with people for fun<br />3. I stare at a nice ass (inconspicuously!! and i know, i should be ashamed. lol)<br /><br />~FOUR~ PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:<br />synfulx<br />rebelwings<br />lynlyn4<br />x0xblondii urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:51880 2008-10-03T17:45:27Z 2008-10-03T17:47:01Z Spice Girls- tell me why Fuck. The bailout bill was JUST passed. shit shit shit. And the democrats had almost twice as many votes for it than the republicans! Can we say Como?!!? Ack. I'm so upset with this choice. Fuck.<br /><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/greenangel99/pic/0000gkz0/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/greenangel99/pic/0000gkz0" width="265" height="239" border="0" /></a><br /><br />/rant urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:51394 2008-10-02T03:47:26Z 2008-10-03T01:52:06Z Katy Perry- ur so gay "borrowed" from christina. <br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br />Bold the ones that are true.<br />Italicize the ones that are sort of true.<br /><br />general<br />♫ I am 5'4 or shorter.<br />♫ <i>I think I'm ugly.</i><br />♫ <b>I have many scars.</b><br />♫ <b>I tan easily.</b><br />♫ I wish my hair was a different color.<br />♫ I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.<br />♫ I have a tattoo.<br />♫ <b>I am self-conscious about my appearance.</b><br />♫ I have/had braces.<br />♫ I wear glasses.<br />♫ I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.<br />♫ I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. <br />♫ <b>I have had more than two piercings.</b><br />♫ <b>I have had piercings in places besides my ears.</b><br />♫ I have freckles.<br /><br /><br />family/home life<br />♫ <b>I've sworn at my parents.</b><br />♫ <b>I've run away from home.</b> <br />♫ <b>I've been kicked out of the house.</b><br />♫ My biological parents are together.<br />♫ I have a sibling less than one year old.<br />♫ <b>I want to have kids someday.</b><br />♫ I have children.<br />♫ I've lost a child.<br /><br /><br />embarrassment<br />♫ I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.<br />♫ <i>Disney movies still make me cry.</i> (the Lion King makes my eyes sting, which is as close to crying as it gets for me)<br />♫ I've snorted while laughing.<br />♫ I've laughed so hard I've cried. <br />♫ <b>I've glued my hand to something.</b><br />♫ <b>I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.</b> (it happened to be soup!)<br />♫ I've had my trousers rip in public.<br />♫ <b>I've had stitches.</b><br />♫ <b>I've broken a bone.</b> (the same toe, twice!)<br />♫ I've had my tonsils removed.<br />♫ <i>I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.</i> (it was a friend's dad, and it was an emergency room, not really a doctor's office)<br />♫ I've had my wisdom teeth removed.<br />♫ I've had serious surgery.<br />♫ <b>I've had chicken pox.</b><br /><br />traveling<br />♫ <b>I've driven over 200 miles (1000km) in one day.</b><br />♫ <b>I've been on a plane.</b><br />♫ <b>I've been to North America.</b> (considering i live here .. )<br />♫ I've been to Niagara Falls.<br />♫ I've been to Japan. Twice.<br />♫ <b>I've been to Europe.</b><br />♫ <b>I've been to Africa.</b><br /><br /><br />experiences<br />♫ <i>I've been lost in my city.</i> (I didn't know where I was exactly, but I did know how to get back)<br />♫ <b>I've seen a shooting star.</b> my first one was just a few weeks ago!!!<br />♫ <b>I've wished on a shooting star.</b><br />♫ I've seen a meteor shower.<br />♫ I've gone out in public in my pajamas.<br />♫ <b>I've pushed all the buttons in a lift.</b><br />♫ <b>I've been to a casino.</b><br />♫ I've been skydiving.<br />♫ <i>I've gone skinny dipping.</i> streaking in the rain- still wet and naked. lmao. damn the dare. *shakes head*<br />♫ I've played spin the bottle.<br />♫ I've crashed a car.<br />♫ I've been skiing.<br />♫ I've been in a play.<br />♫ I've met someone in person from the internet.<br />♫ <b>I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.</b><br />♫ I've seen the northern lights.<br />♫ <b>I've sat on a roof top at night.</b> from night til morning, most times<br />♫ <i>I've played chicken.</i> It was monkey bar chicken, where u hold onto the bars, and kick at the other person til one drops<br />♫ I've seen the RHPS.<br />♫ <b>I've eaten sushi.</b><br />♫ <b>I've been snowboarding.</b> suckkk, but fun. :)<br /><br /><br />relationships<br />♫ <b>I'm single.</b><br />♫ I'm in a relationship.<br />♫ <b>I'm available.</b><br />♫ I'm engaged.<br />♫ I'm married.<br />♫ I've gone on a blind date.<br />♫ I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.<br />♫ I have a fear of abandonment.<br />♫ I've been divorced.<br />♫ <b>I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.</b> <br />♫ <b>I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.</b> it was my mom, not someone who really meant something to me. wow, that sounds bad...<br />♫ I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.<br />♫ <b>I've kept something from a past relationship.</b><br /><br /><br />sexuality<br />♫ <b>I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.</b><br />♫ I've kissed a member of the same gender.<br />♫ <b>I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender.</b><br />♫ I've had sex with someone of the same gender.<br />♫ I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.<br />♫ <b>I am a cuddler.</b><br />♫ <b>I've been kissed in the rain.</b><br />♫ <i>I've had sex outdoors.</i><br />♫ I've hugged a stranger.<br />♫ I have kissed a stranger.<br />♫ I have had sex with a stranger.<br /><br /><br />honesty/crime<br />♫ <b>I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.</b> it was nothing that would hurt anyone though<br />♫ <b>I have lied to my parents about where I am.</b><br />♫ <b>I am keeping a secret from the world.</b><br />♫ I've cheated while playing a video game.<br />♫ I've cheated on a test.<br />♫ I've driven through a red light.<br />♫ I've been suspended from school.<br />♫ <b>I've witnessed a crime.</b><br />♫ <b>I've been in a fist fight.</b><br />♫ I've been arrested.<br />♫ I've shoplifted.<br /><br /><br />drugs/alcohol<br />♫ <b>I've consumed alcohol.</b><br />♫ <b>I have/do smoke cigarettes.</b> I tried it once, didn't really like it. Gave the other half of it to my sis. lol.<br />♫ <b>I have/do smoke pot.</b> tried it once also, didn't really like it. i dont see the advantage of pumping smoke into my lungs. just me? lol.<br />♫ I regularly drink.<br />♫ I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.<br />♫ I take cough medication when I'm not sick.<br />♫ I've done hard drugs.<br />♫ I've been addicted to an illegal substance.<br />♫ I can't swallow pills.<br />♫ I can swallow about five pills at a time no problem.<br /><br />random<br />♫ I can sing well.<br />♫ I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.<br />♫ I open up to others too easily.<br />♫ <b>I watch the news.</b><br />♫ <b>I don't kill bugs.</b><br />♫ <b>I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme.</b> <br />♫ <b>I fucking swear regularly.</b> Dude, I've gotten so much better! (well it got worse when i came up here, and now im better again. lol.)<br />♫ <i>I sing in the shower.</i><br />♫ <b>I am a morning person.</b><br />♫ I paid for my mobile phone ring tone.<br />♫ I'm a snob about grammar.<br />♫ I am a sports fanatic.<br />♫ I play with my hair.<br />♫ I have/had "x"s in my screen name.<br />♫ I love being neat.<br />♫ I love spam.<br />♫ <b>I've copied more than 30 cds in a day.</b><br />♫ <b>I bake well.</b><br />♫ <b>My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.</b> (blue) <br />♫ I don't know how to shoot a gun.<br />♫ <b>I am in love with love.</b><br />♫ I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.<br />♫ <b>I laugh at my own jokes.</b> i will only tell a joke that i also find funny.<br />♫ I eat fast food weekly.<br />♫ I believe in ghosts. <br />♫ I am online 24/7, even as an away message. <br />♫ <b>I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.</b><br />♫ <b>I am really ticklish. !!!!!!!!!!!</b> lol<br />♫ <i>I love white chocolate.</i><br />♫ I bite my nails.<br />♫ I play video games. <br />♫ <b>I'm good at remembering faces.</b><br />♫ <b>I'm good at remembering names.</b><br />♫ I'm good at remembering dates.<br />♫ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.<br />♫ <b>My answers are totally honest.</b><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:50780 2008-09-30T22:51:29Z 2008-09-30T23:35:49Z 1. There are 30 questions. <br />2. Next to each number, write only the name of the person who fits. <br />3. Answer one question with one name. <br />4. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme. <br /><br />So I don't have very many lj-friends, like at all, b/c i don't network online, so I'm just gonna use real names of people in my life, besides lj friends.<br /><br />1. synfulx<br />2. Suki (10 years), then innisfree (7 years? :O) <br />3. Meg <br />4. Jackie <br />5. Jess<br />6. ALette and Suazo <br />7. Jackie<br />8. Meg or Janessa <br />9. Janessa <br />10. Alette<br />11. synfulx....lol<br />12. *cough* gonna keep my mouth shut on this one <br />13. innisfree XD <br />14. innisfree and janessa <br />15. gloria <br />16. janessa and suazo <br />17. jackie and erin <br />18. rebelwings <br />19. innisfree and janessa <br />20. suazo and janessa <br />21. innisfree!!! <br />22. janessa (jesus christ ive used her a lot) <br />23. Heather, mostly cuz she is <br />24. suazo <br />25. synfulx <br />26. meg <br />27. Someone who loves with all their heart. <br />28. Heather, because she said she was going to go to animeboston as a banana! <br />29. same person as #12, and same response <br />30. you are all awesome, and the majority have definitely changed my life in some way. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:50388 2008-09-24T17:21:18Z 2008-09-24T17:21:18Z goo goo dolls- better days I fear for the future of our nation. It's really scary. There is soo much going on right now in our country, and plenty of people have opinions, but there is no one DOING anything. What the fuck is this about, when there is even an option for the federal government to give companies 700 fucking billions dollars because they're going down. The people in this country are idiots, and I have no problem saying it. Most people are living wayyy beyond their means, and in the end, the same companies who lent them the money in the first place are suffering. Why are there people in the middle class, and slightly higher class who own 3 cars, a truck, a jet ski, and a snowmobile? It's disgusting and ridiculous. I feel like with everything that is going with the economy, and especially the banks, right now, we should let the system collapse rather than help out and give away 700 billion dollars to companies that are already cash hogs. If the economy went under, people would be forced to start over. And that's what we need. Maybe when the country eventually falls into a depression, people will realize the excess they are living in. I just, I can't fathom what the future will be like for America. Our problem is certainly not only the economy, but right now that's a major factor. Ugh, I'm not gonna say anymore. I'll get off my soapbox now. =/ I really feel like we're going to see a huge change in global power soon, if America continues to sink. And I'm afraid of that. With America being one of the most free countries in the world, I can't really wrap my head around the idea of there being another "superpower" in the world other than us. I've gotten used to the way I live. Ack. Okay now I'm done. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:47291 2008-08-24T15:25:50Z 2008-08-24T15:25:50Z Modest Mouse Hi! My third roommate moved in yesterday. She didn't have to come til yesterday because she's an upperclassmen. But yeah. Our entire room ended up being rearranged because she didn't want the top bunk. I can understand that, but I'm a little iffed right now. They put all of my stuff in like the hardest to reach places. Like my set of drawers is under my bed, because that's the only place they'll fit i guess. I guess I can understand but they should've at least asked me you know? Rawr! But I'm over it. I moved stuff a little bit, so it's all slightly more accessible. The new roommate is ok though. She seems fun, and definitely more talkative than the other roomie. Before she came it was always like stone silent in our room. <br /><br />But good news!!! I figured out how to get aim while in the lab, so I'm very excited. If people sign on I'll actually be able to talk to them. lol. How nice. :P But yeah hopefully tomorrow I can get to the help desk and get the wireless in my room straightened away. Classes start tomorrow too. I'm kind of excited. :) For once, I'm actually hoping there's homework just so it'll give me something to do. haha. <br /><br />That's really all that's going on right now. I know, how boring. Sadly I have yet to make a life. :P Soon though. Maybe. heh. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:47069 2008-08-22T20:48:34Z 2008-08-22T21:14:36Z Bowling Ball - Superchick Hi wonderful little world I actually know!!! I've missed you so much!!!<br /><br />Yeah. So I'm at Norwich now. Got here Wednesday. Things are going... well, they're going. This whole week has been filled with orientation stuff so I really haven't had a minute to myself. Just today I made my first friend (potentially two others). I'm in a weird state right now. I'm kinda lonely and I really miss all my friends and definitely my brother (surprisingly!) but I'm not homesick. I just miss my regular situations around people, most of whom I know. <br /><br />I'm so excited to be able to post and stuff now because this is like my sole connection to the Massacusetts world (besides AIM, which no one seems to be on). (little side note, thinking of Massachusetts, I've already been laughed at twice for calling the little thing a bubbler rather than a water fountain). <br /><br />So yeah. Got here Wednesday. Left the house at 4:30 in the morning. My dad and my mom's boyfriend drove me up. Move-in went pretty quickly. Despite having 8 banana and apple boxes from work chock full of my stuff, I was done in roughly an hour. I met one of my roommates. She's alright. Half of her other school already goes here, too, so there's no chance of really being friends with her becuase she already has so many and doesn't want more. My other roommate will be coming on Saturday because she'll be a transfer sophmore student. Over the course of these 3 days, most of the time was spent going to different buildings, meeting my advisor, hearing about our honor code (which is like OMG strict, haha, and definitely enforced), figuring out all the techie stuff around the school, and being tossed into all these "ice-breaker" situations to meet everyone else here. <br /><br />When I first got my schedule, it made my class day at 11:40 in the morning, and I had 12 credits (the max is 16). I decided that my day would be too short though, so I added another class, and fixed a few things, so this is my new schedule, with 15 credits rather than 12. I wonder how people get 16?<br /><br />Chinese 111 @ 7:50-8:40 am MWF and 7:45-9:00 am TR<br />English 101 @ 9:50-10:40 am MWF<br />American Politics 105 @ 10:50-11:40 am MWF<br />Math 101 @ 2:00-2:50 MWF<br /><br />The Chinese happened because I wanted to take German but got put in Spanish, so when I went to go change that, German was all closed. Apparently German is a popular class among the rooks (the freshman in the cadet corps)so I was SOL (haha). Chinese will definitely be a challenge, but I heard the professor is really nice, and we have a great learning support center, so it should be cool. I think I might be able to be bumped up to English 102 instead of 101 because of my AP score, but I might not find out in time because the records of AP scores and transfers still haven't been processed. I don't mind being in the simple math course, because it'll be an easy A to count on my GPA, and it actually does count towards graduation. (For some reason, people taking Algebra instead of Math 101 don't get it counted for graduation).<br /><br />So besides all this college stuff, I'm doing pretty good. I spent the night before I left hanging out with a few of my friends. We went to some place in Chelmsford for ice cream, then went to Hadley park, then to taco bell. We were out til almost midnight. I would have loved to spend my last night with some closer friends, like Christina, Liz, Chanda, David, Stacy, etc etc. But I couldn't get in touch with anyone, so I settled. It was definitely nice though. Uh, so I feel like this post is going on for a long time. It's just that the most talking I've done with people is like Hi I'm Ally. Whats your name. Major? Where'd u live before? and all that nonsense. So this is nice, to "talk." Even if it is to myself for now. haha. <br /><br />Oh yeah! I forgot. I went to a rugby practice yesterday. It was totally kick ass!! I'm definitely thinking about doing it. Probably not until the spring semester, because I have to get things sorted out first, plus it would definitely help to be in better shape, but yeah. I had a lot of fun. I wasn't allowed to do much because if I got hurt without being on the team, the school would be liable, but it was still cool. The rugby team here is ranked 5th in the country, and has the highest GPA of all the other teams on campus, so it's pretty cool. One of the girls on the team is my RA, and 2 other girls live on my floor. I'm excited about it. :)<br /><br />So the wireless internet in my dorm isn't working yet. And stupid Ally forgot to bring her ethernet cable to hook up to the wall. So right now I'm in our 24-hour computer lab. I acutally don't mind this. It gives me some time away from my dorm. haha. But yeah. I'm not on my own comp right now, so I'm not sure if AIM is allowed on it, but I would love it if some people wouldn't mind emailing!! haha. (not too desperate, right? :P) Anyway my email is lallyfreak99@yahoo.com<br /><br />So I'm gonna cut this now, before I go on rambling anymore. I miss everyone at home lots and lots, and when you guys start college, make sure you keep me updated!!! I'll be back later. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:46759 2008-05-16T11:20:47Z 2008-05-16T11:20:47Z white houses - vanessa carlton Rawr. I need to write. And I'm here, so why the hell not, eh? <br /><br />I'm confused. And stressed. But more confused. Life is starting to move very fast. i want to embrace the change, only I'm nopt ready to yet. Life in high school was just getting to where I wanted it to be, and now it's over. I'm going to be high school in five more days. I'll lose any chances of anything I had while I was here. I hate that idea. How once you move on, you can't go back. I wonder how many oppurtunities I missed? Thinking, oh I have all this time. I'm still young. I'll take initiative when I'm good and ready. And now it'll all be basically over in about 5-7 days. Rawrrr.<br /><br />I've got things boggling my mind right now. Some really personal, and others I'm sure everyone my age is going through. Am I going to the right school? Will I get the right job? Is it really the job for me? Will I ever see these people again? Etc etc etc. Clearly, none of these are original thoughts, because just about every senior who ever graduated high school has thought about this same junk millions of times. It's still stressful though. And then the other stuff going on in my mind. The stuff I really don't want to address. Or do want to address, but am afraid of doing. Blahh. I dunno. It's just weird. Or something...<br /><br />I'm kinda angry. Why does leaving a school automatically assume you won't see most of those people anymore? I've made a lot of friends and I don't like how we all just accept giving them up once school's over. I'm definitely all for new things. I practically embrace change. But I don't see why you have to get rid of the old in order to experience the new. I'm just starting to really get close to a few people, and let's just say we hang out over the summer, that's still only about 2-3 more months of friendship. I don't want to accept that. But I guess I'll have to, huh? But if I do manage to grow a pair, it's a sure thing I won't be letting any more oppurtunities pass. <br /><br />Yay. Cleared some thoughts. So formal "update." Going to Norwich University in the fall. That's right. Northfield, Vermont, aka cowville. I'll be majoring in political science, and will probably take Russian as my required language, though I'm still debating on German. Prom is May 23rd and graudation is June 4. I've been hanging out with a bunch of different groups of people, and having a lot of fun with all of them. Hopefully the summer fo 2008 will bring a lot more fun outings, and hopefully a lot more opportunities for me to grab a hold of (like I said, if I manage to grow a pair. :P) <br /><br />That's all. I know I always say it, but I will try to post more, although I have no internet, so it will be hard. bye for now, little journal. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:46569 2008-02-09T23:47:43Z 2008-02-09T23:47:43Z I didn't go to school yesterday. I had my last day of court with retard. The one who tried to counter-sue me for damages after the charges of abuse got dismissed. Retard. The whole justice system is a retard by the way. Only in America can a person try to counter-sue their step-daughter after he gets off. Of course, only in America can that said step-daughter actually report the retard fairly, so I guess I can't gripe too much. Anyway. His charges were addressed, but since I'm a minor, and since I had the same judge who went over the first case, I don't actually have to pay anything. But I did get a lecture. Apparently I should feel bad for trying to get justice. *shrug* News to me. How about you? Anyway. I went into work after that, and my boss was all fussing over me. He said I looked stressed and whatnot. I said I was fine, and he let it drop because he had to leave. Then I come in this morning, and my friend/second boss is asking if I'm okay because my boss said I was upset yesterday. Oy vey. Can't a person just have one bad day and take a break from being a cheery goofball without hearing about it for a week? It's ok though, I guess. I realize they're just looking out for me. I really do like the people I work with, but you know how it is sometimes. You just don't want to talk to anyone. <br /><br />There's not really much else going on. Winterfest is this weekend, but I'm not going. I'm tired. Plus I have to be in work at 6 am tomorrow. School's been going okay. Minus one note taking guide, I'm all caught up on school work and such. I'll try my best to make this last semester count. <br /><br />On Wednesday, me and David hung out. It was a lot of fun. We planned on going to play pool after school, but then I realized it didn't open until after 5, so we thought of other things to do. I brought him to Middlesex for tutoring to kill time while we thought of something to do, but when we got there, no one showed up- probably because it was rainy. He ended up showing me these little out of the way shops near downtown. We went to this little antique store that sold old, classic things. It was cute when he showed me this little doll thing that said "Ideal Girl" on it. He was like 'are you the ideal girl?' I had no idea what to say, but it was really cute. Then we went to this little antique store that had a bunch of cool, old stuff. We went to this place where DVDs cost 5 bucks, and CDs only 4. We had a lot of fun in there. I bought a movie called Idiocracy on his recommendation. I remember Wesley telling me something about it on the bus before too. We walked around the city a little more, and then went to my house. We watched the movie together in the living room, and then he decided he needed to see my room. lol. I didn't blame him. I'm always curious about what people have too, so I let him see my junk. Then we hung out in there for like an hour before his mom came and he went home. <br /><br />I wish I had more to say. haha. Now I remember why I went on such an lj hiatus: I never have much to write about. *dork* Talk to you later people (or whoever reads this anymore. :) ) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:46084 2008-02-05T14:44:04Z 2008-02-05T14:46:56Z <a name="cutid1"></a>I keep wondering about this. Like I don’t want to believe it, especially since it seems like such a fad nowadays. Like apparently this is something popular, and that bugs me to no end. It’s such an important decision for a person and people just treat it like any old shoe craze or something. I’ve had such a hang up on this probably since I was a sophomore, and I’m still not sure. There’s obviously the one thing that’s holding me back, but I don’t even know how real my feelings on that are. If those were serious, then all my other thoughts would be obsolete, but since I don’t know I’m more confused than ever. That one thing holding me back makes me so happy, but I still can’t deny my feelings for this. My mom asked about it once, and instantly the thought seemed crazy, but the more I thought about it, the more I knew I was lying to her, and more than that, to myself. This shouldn’t be such a big deal; it wasn’t at all for him, but still. I feel like he’s just following a trend, too, and I really don’t want to do that. It doesn’t help that it would be so stereotypical for me to do this. I’ll just keep thinking about it and wondering, and maybe when I graduate, act on it, but for now, I just don’t want to face this. <br /><br />I’ve come to a big revelation about things in my personal life that are really good. I actually just fell upon it last night while I was trying to fall asleep. It definitely helped me to just move on from everything. For now, until this revelation wears off, I’m perfectly happy with accepting everything that’s happened in my life and that’s cool. I feel at peace somehow (and I also feel like a goofball for writing this. :P)<br /><br />In other news, I got one college acceptance from Norwich University and I’m still waiting on more. I’m a little worried because my financial aid stuff is late for my top choice school, but there’s nothing I can do about that until my mom decides to give me her information. Nothing else going on in the realms of school that I can think of.<br /><br />Things with David are developing, and that’s about all I feel like saying. He makes me happy. :) <br /><br />Uhh yeah. That’s all. I just felt like posting. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:46077 2008-01-15T03:03:31Z 2008-01-15T03:03:31Z According to livejournal it's been 16 weeks since my last post, so I figured I should probably update again. lol.<br /><br />We had a snowday today, and I ended up trying to get into work for 7 in the am, but b/c of buses being slow didn't get there until almost 7:45. That's okay though. I got a $5 gift certificate for showing up during a snowstorm AND my boss said he's going to give the 3 of us who showed up $25 gift certificates to some restaurant which is really nice of him. I'm really tired though. I got home around 4, and fell asleep til 7. I was studying for the Psychology quarterly but then got distracted by American Gladiators and the lure of the internet, so here I am.<br /><br />A lot has gone on in the past 4 months, but at the same time not too much has happened, if you get what I mean. I'll just go through the list and talk about what I feel like. Let's see... I finished all my college stuff and now I'm just waiting for some envelope to decide my future for me, I got an interview with Harvard that went well though I doubt I'll actually ever get in there, my mom said she has throat cancer though I'm not sure whether to believe her or not, I've got a new romance brewing though it's nothing serious yet, I went snowboarding for the first time a while ago, I saw my real dad this past weekend which is always nice since I see him about twice a year if that, I have a turtle for a while, and I think that's about it. Hahhaa. Nice run on sentence there. Now to elaborate on stuff:<br /><br />So I applied to Harvard, Wellesley, Brandeis, Boston University, Norwich, and UMass Amherst. My top choice is Wellesley but I'm starting to realize I'd probably be very happy at any one of those schools if I couldn't get into Wellesley. The Harvard interview was so nerve wracking but once I was actually going through it, it was fine. The person I talked to was really nice and funny, so I wasn't tooo scared. haha. <br /><br />Just before Christmas my mom told me and two of my brothers that she had throat cancer and probably wouldn't be around for our next Christmas. For most people, if they heard that from their mom they'd probably be all supportive and ask questions and what not, but if you know my situation you know that's not the case. First of all, she blurted it out to us when she was drunk and we were all in the middle of an argument over her driving me home drunk and her stealing my money. Plus, when me and my bro looked it up that night, everything she was saying didn't really fit into the online info. But she still keeps talking about it, and has had doctor's appointments for it, so at this point I really have no choice but to believe her. This really sucks, but I don't feel at all affected by it yet. Maybe if I start seeing physical signs I might believe it and it'll feel more real to me, but right now I just have to let everything happen and deal with it as it comes.<br /><br />So this romance thing now. It's nothing serious, but it's definitely a big development. I've been hanging out with David a lot lately and it really makes me happy. We've gone to the movies, out to dinner, he's hung out at my house, I've hung out at his 3 different times, and he always walks me home. We've started hanging out in the mornings as well, and I dont know, I dont want to get all mushy, but like I said before, he just makes me really happy. Even if we don't end up ever REALLY dating, I'd be happy just to have this relationship with him for a very long time. *blushes and laughs* :D That's all I'm gonna say on that. Not jinxing anything. <br /><br />Last update thingy- I hung out with my real dad this weekend. Just me him and my bro. It was nice. We went to the 99 for dinner, I gave him his Christmas present that I've been holding, and I learned soooo much about him. Before Friday, all I knew about him was his birthday and his name. He told me all about his life, and how he used to be a semi-pro boxer, and apparently a high school football start at Lowell High in the 50s. (yes, he's very old. :P) He's actually a really nice guy and I definitely don't hold it against him that he's not around. It's ok. After dinner the three of us went to play pool, and he definitely humiliated us. lol. He plays really well and he gaves me some pointers. It was fun. I wish we could hang out more often. It'd be cool for him to be in my life, ya know?<br /><br />I don't have too much else to say. I watched Georgia Rule last night on the computer, and it almost made me cry. That was a really great movie. Lindsay Lohan may not be the best person in real life, but she definitely did an incredible job with this movie. She didn't fake anything or make it seem unreal so I was happy with it. :) <br /><br />What else? I've been doing mock trial at school which is really fun. We've been building a case, and I got picked as the key witness. (I was too scared to actually be a lawyer. lol.) I've also developed an interest in the show The L Word. It's a good show, people should watch it. :)<br /><br />Sorry for not updating people or commenting as much as I should. I have been busy, besides the fact that my comp was in the shop for like 3 weeks. I know I say it every time, but I will try to update more often. Ciao baby. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:45683 2007-09-23T00:45:09Z 2007-09-23T00:45:09Z <a name="cutid1"></a>This is Christina's meme thingy. I never do these. lol. But alas, I was tagged. :P<br /><br />1. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.<br />2. Tag seven people to do the same.<br />3. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it."<br /><br />1. I am absolutely addicted to reality TV, but not like the queer bachelor shows, more like Survivor, and Solitary, and Top Chef, and Clean House and junk. lol. <br /><br />2. Every night before I go to bed, I stare at my eyes in my mirror, kind of analyzing them. And then when I "wake up" in the morning, I do the same thing and try to find any traces of difference. *dork*<br /><br />3. I love the silence and just reflecting, but whenever I'm with a person, I feel the need to make small talk or do SOMETHING because I think the other person doesn't like silence.<br /><br />4. Sometimes, when I talk to people, I'll finish whatever I'm saying to them, but continue it in song form in my mind. (I know this sounds retarded so I'll explain. Like if I said "hey" to someone, in my mind I'd be singing hey hey you you i dont like your girlfriend, or some such nonsense.)<br /><br />5. I think about things way too much when it comes to myspace surveys, or things like these memes and stuff. haha.<br /><br />6. I work in a bakery, and yet I have yet to do any baking. <br /><br />7. I'm in a community on LJ where people send things to each other from around the world, and it's really fun. I got a package from England one time. :) <br /><br />(those last two were silly, but I couldnt think of anything else about myself. :P)<br /><br />I tag rebelwings, synfulx, onceuponatime44, jadedxmemoriz, lynlyn4, xoxblondii, and theickfactor. <br /><br />Ack. I'm really really tired. I planned on doing a post after that survey, but now I just wanna go to bed. lol. So says the insomniac. I'll post later. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:45539 2007-09-17T03:24:50Z 2007-09-17T03:24:50Z Wow. I never though I'd say this, but I'm actually pleased with how my college application essay turned out. I still have ideas for how I wanted it to be, but if I can't fit them in, that's fine. I'm actually happy with it. And I'm never happy with my work, so that's saying something. Yay. SATs are October 6th, and I'm very happy because I actually got a spot at Lowell High for the test, event though I registered on the day of the dead line. haha. Collegeboard said I wouldn't have a spot there, so I thought I was going to Andover. I didn't mind my score for the test last year, but like 4 people told me if I studied I'd do wayy better (what a shocker, eh?!!) so I'm probably going to buy a study guide of some sort. This is all beginning to seem very real. The whole moving on with life and school and everything. And I can't say I'm not happy. hahah. <br /><br />I have the usual school gripes, but they can wait. Generic version: some classes are good, some not so much, and thankfully no personal issues with people (aka drama!) so woot woot.<br /><br />I can't wait to move into this new apartment. We've started painting and everything, and me and my mom are on the same page for how we want everything designed. Even though it's a smaller place, I think I'm going to like it better, just because it will actually feel like home. I still feel like a visitor at this home, just because I didn't live her for 2 years and all. So new place = yay. And with the money from my job, my room is going to look very kick ass. I've already picked out my bed set and junk, so now my entire room will all be in different tones of blue. Yay-ness! <br /><br />Okay I have to go study for psychology and anatomy, so I'm done posting. Sorry for the lack of activity on LJ - and everywhere else - lately. My computer bores me, and I'm hardly home anymore. hah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:45137 2007-09-08T22:10:14Z 2007-09-08T22:22:02Z =/ Mr. Powers died last night. Me and Christina were talking about him with Mr. Daley just yesterday morning. He told us that they didnt expect him to live much longer, but he said at least a few weeks. And then, of all places, I just learned about it on Myspace like 5 minutes ago. That really sucks. Even though I wasnt lucky enough to have a class with him, I still know how cool he was from the MCC tutoring. He was definitely a great teacher, and a really great man. I feel awkward saying anymore about him, but I still feel bad. This definitely wasnt expected at all. Although I guess it should have been. =/ Crap.<br /><br />R.I.P. Mr. Powers. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:44854 2007-09-06T03:19:26Z 2007-09-06T03:19:26Z i wanna be with you - mandy moore <a name="cutid1"></a>I'm happy. I think. Lmao. I dunno, I should be, but I'm still kind of wary. Let me just write the facts, and then I'll elaborate if I feel like it. So. This summer, I've been getting treatment 3 times a week at Saints Cancer center.It was working well at first, but then kind of stopped. Like it stopped any new cancer from developing, but the cancer that was already there kept spreading. So obviously, that wasnt good. The docs were doing a bunch of different stuff to make my white cells go up and kill the cancer and what not. (I dont want to get into specific medical details because it's all very boring. Anyway.) So. For a while, their new method was working (I think they just changed the doses and stuff for my treatment) but then that stopped working to. Like my body was becoming immune to it all too fast. By about mid-August I think it was, they were saying if it doesnt start working, I'll have no choice but to do the chemo. They knew how much I didnt want that to happen, so they were trying everything they knew. Personally, it seemed like they were just doing the same thing, but whatever. They said the results were beginning to look better, so I definitely had no complaints. Like 2 weeks ago, they said the results were the same. As in better than usual, but still not that great. Which is why they sent me to Boston, with all the amazing specialist. *eye roll* lol. So yeah, a bunch of poking and prodding and x-rays later, they said to come back in a few weeks. As in yesterday. They ran a bunch more tests, and no one was saying anything so I just figured fuck, chemo here I come. But then they told me what i definitely did NOT expect to hear. The treatments worked, but my body needed a break from them in order to respond I guess. Because according to all the tests, I'm in <b><i>remission!!!!!!</b></i> Obviously a good thing, so i was wondering why no one else was as excited as I was. Doctors or not, they should be happy. lol. But anyway. It wasnt all good news. Although the cancers gone, they STILL cant take out the tumor. Its too close to my heart, and since theres no danger from it right now, theres no need to risk it. Which means theres a possibility this could return. Hence my little, I'm happy, but not so much. But still. A lot more happy than wary. So yay! No more icky needles and tests and cancer talk. I'm dooooonnnnneeee. Well except for various follow up appointments. lmao. But still. Doonnnneee!!! :D I r relatively healthy again. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:44758 2007-09-04T01:24:49Z 2007-09-04T01:24:49Z Colbie Caillat - Bubbly Sorry its been so long since my last post. Just been really busy lately. here's like a mini-recap.<br /><br />My brother left to college yesterday. I didnt think it would happen so soon, but I already miss him. *dork* lol. I helped him pack and what not all morning yesterday because he's a butt nugget and didnt do it before, and then I had to go to work. So I didnt even get to see his college or dorm or anything. But I guess thats okay b/c it'll make it more enjoyable for when I go to visit him there sometime.<br /><br />The day before he left, my other brother came back from South Dakota. He was doing a biology residency dealy there, working with turtles, and tagging them and stuff. From stories he told me, I definitely feel bad for the turtles. Science is not friendly to animals. =/ But anyway. He came back, so we had a welcome home/going away party for two of my brothers. I brought home this cake/cupcake tray that I decorated myself for the occasion. It looks pretty, but most of it is still sitting in my fridge because none of my family is big on cake. hahah. Silly idea but whatever. It was good to see my brother after so long. He got sooo flipping tan, and was like "yeah I got a full body tan!" Of course, the spurned a not so savory comment from me about how little clothes he must have been wearing in order to get the "full body" tan. hahah. It was a good night.<br /><br />What else? Oh yeah. School is good so far. I'm kinda disappointed with the people in my classes, but hopefully that wont be a big deal since I like the classes themselves. *crosses fingers for a good year*<br /><br />Oh yeah now I remember what I wanted to post about. I'll be moving soon. Like prolly this month/beginning of next month. I'll still be in Lowell though, so thats good. No school changes or anything like that. We're just downsizing to a 2-bedroom apartment which will be cheaper and whatnot. My four weeks of work savings went towards the down payment, but I guess I cant complain because I'll be living there too. I'm moving to Westmeadow Road, wherever that is. lol. It's like ... I dunno I cant describe where it is. In one of those middle of nowhere neighborhoods. I still havent seen inside the apartment, just dorve past it, but from what my mom said it's nice and big, which is good. We'll see though.<br /><br />Not much else to post. I bought 3 pairs of pants today. Badly needed, so yay to that. 2 of them are pinstriped, which I like. <br /><br />Oh. I have a lot to update about the medical-ness of my life, but I'll prolly do that tomorrow. I have one big appointment tomorrow, which I'll have to miss school for, and then I'll just update on everything. <br /><br />So yeah. Thats all for now. Good night. I hope everyones happy and well and such. :D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:44527 2007-08-29T00:02:47Z 2007-08-29T00:02:47Z Oy. Dont hate me please. I'm prolly not coming in to school tomorrow. I didnt realize how much English work I still have left to do, and I know I wont finish it all tonight. So I'll be spending the day at the library tomorrow finishing up. I'll be in Thursday, just not tomorrow. If someone knows FOR CERTAIN that our work wont be collected tomorrow, I'll come in, but I dont want to chance it. I'm off to go continue to work, but I'll check again later tonight to see if anyone knows. Also, is school tomorrow, Thursday, and Friday, or just tomorrow and Thursday? And we're having full days right? Okay bye for now. Feel free to bombard me with swears for not getting my work done. I already did the same to myself all day. I'm such a dumbass sometimes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:44213 2007-08-27T23:54:21Z 2007-08-27T23:54:21Z I dont have much time to waste on the computer, so I'll make this quick. I finally competely finished getting my schedule fixed today. I have to take honors anatomy instead of AP Physics b/c the time its made interferes with ROTC's scheduling. Crap. but I guess its a little bit okay b/c it makes this school year a little less stressful. I decided I didnt want to do gym again for the honors science PE dealy, so I got VHS done. I'll be taking Sociology in the fall, and then an Intro to gov't in the spring, which will both be good for college preparation. So anyway, here's my schedule.<br /><br />Honors Anatomy/Physiology - Richards<br /> (VHS on off days)<br />Honors ROTC 4 - Chief Jacques<br />AP Psychology - Carey<br />Lunch 2<br />AP Calculus - Bascunan<br />AP English 4 - Berard<br />Honors Forensics Science<br /><br />And then thats all the same for second semester, except I'll intern for O'Neil instead of doing forensics.<br /><br />Let me know if we have classes together, and I'll do a proper post later once I have some time. Bye. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:43872 2007-08-21T04:49:18Z 2007-08-21T04:49:18Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />I am so done with Alex. Like more than a person can really fathom. He's a waste of a brother, and normally I'd feel bad saying that, but I don't. Not one bit. He starts an argument with me tonight because he feels he should have free reign over all my stuff just because he's going to college and therefore needs them. This whole thing happened over my freaking alarm clock. He's going to orientation for 2 days and needs my alarm clock so he can wake up. I wouldve given it to him no problem if he hadnt been such an ass about it, thinking he had rights to my shit. <br /><br />Inevitably, the little argument turned physical. he's been doing that lately. I cant count how many times I've had to step in between him and my mom becase he thinks he can have his way about anything and therefore pushes her around. He always does the same with me, but I'm not some little kid. I can fight back and he forgets this I guess. Tonight though, I couldnt really. So what happened is he nearly strangled me by having his hand on my throat while pushing me into the wall, threw me on the floor by bashing my nose (whihc of course bled like no tomorrow because thats just what it does), and bit my leg while I tried kicking him off of me. That bite left this huge ass bruise on me. Its like one big nasty rectangle. And this is all absolutely ridiculous. I refuse to live in such a dysfunctional house. After all was said and done, my mom basically blamed me for frickin hurting his feelings and not giving him what he asked for, instead of yelling at him or something for all the crap he did to me.<br /><br />This isnt some stupid pity story. This is me venting about how fucked up this frickin house is. A mom who steals from me, a brother who tries to run the house with his fist, and mom's boyfriend who isnt seen...ever. I really wish I went through with the whole emancipation thing like I planned. Then I wouldnt be living here. I'd have my own place. With actual money that doesnt need to be hidden in order to be saved. I cant express how happy I am to know that my brother will be leaving. I mightve been sad for like a second, but then I think of all the crap he put me through since i was 8, and I just say good riddance. He isnt a stable person, and I'm definitely done with him. I'm not going through this crap anymore. <br /><br />That was a decent vent. I'm o longer shaking with anger, so I guess mission complete. Sorry if you read that. Just had to get it out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:greenangel99:43643 2007-08-20T15:13:19Z 2007-08-20T15:13:19Z big girls dont cry - fergie Ya know, one thing I have to say for Lowell High is that they are VERY consistent. The sun sets, the world turns, the leaves change, and Lowell High messes up student schedules every year. <br /><br />lmao. But really. I've never seen my schedule so messed up before. The interning I want for spring got put in fall. I have gym for "honors science" each semester, and yet there's no science on my schedule. (They didnt manage to include AP Physics on a schedule. I guess it's too hard.) And I only have 6 classes each semester instead of 7 (though that ties into the other mistake since they didnt include Physics.) I hate going to school waiting in those long lines because EVERYONE else needs to fix theirs too. Oy vey. <br /><br />On a related note, I can't believe we start in 9 days. Thats terrible! I mean I guess it's good, but no. It's not. lol. I have to work double time to finish up my school work, but work keeps giving me more and more hours b/c they know I'll be starting school soon and cant work as much. Booo to them. And boo to myself for not getting my assignments done sooner D: <br /><br />Okay thats all from me for now. I just got my mail, so I felt the need to ridcule it somewhere. Now its off to work. blargh.